Ever You Crushed That Hard ?

Assalammualaikum...

Heyyo ! Wassap wassap bro ! It's been a longggg time since I wrote the last blogpost ain't it? Wuwuwu T_T Sorry for the lost connection. tetttt.. hahaha.. So, how's you guys? Hopefully you all is fineeeeee...Amin~

Lately, there's lot of changes happened in my life physically, biologically and emotionally. LOL ? Physically, I'm getting lighter. I've lost 3kg recently and leave me weight around 49.7kg. And, I also lost the scholarship JPAMARA for medical course. Ngee, sokayy.. Now, I got the offer of going for a matriculation just for one year at Labuan in the field of Science. But since upu's result is not announced yet, so I'll wait for it and make the matriculation's offer as my backup plan. Hmmm, even with my result, I felt suffocated though. Afraid of not going anywhere and afraid of being a doctor would not be achieved, Bilang orang sabah, palis-palis jauh-jauh.. Edidiii..

Biologically and Emotionally, hmmmm...

My heart keep pounding so heart lately and I'm sure it is not heart attack. LOL. Ever you crushed that person so hard? I've been felt it once and it is coming back for the second time in my life. It was so hardddd. Omaigad.. I guess that's the reason why my hands keep on sweating lately. Maybe I'm really that nervous. 

There's some facts that I know when you're crushing someone.

First, if you realized you're crushing on him, you should know you're ready to be hurted, to feel the pain, to feel the jealousy and to feel the joy without him knowing any of it. Kata orang, Syok Sendiri. Haa, some sort of that laa. Even if he laughing with any other girls would make you jealous right? When somebody talked about how sweet he was, how handsome he is, how gentlemen he is would also make you feel hurt. Why? Because you don't have the courage to be like them in front of him. I mean, to be close and alert to him. For example, he gave your friend a glass of water, and your friend said he's sooooo sweet. But you? Only could listen their compliments about him and crushed your heart. Hahhaha ! But if you also got the same glass of water just like your friend, you'll considered as the happiest moment in your life, am I right??  Good.. *patting head*

When you crushed someone, there's only two options if you really wanted to confess it to him no matter what. First, pain. Second, joy. Why? Usually, crushing is only what you feel about him and not what he feel about you. Normally, crushing will lead you to the first option as for him, you're nothing. Errr, nayy, that's too harsh, Hahaha! I mean, it's tooooo rare to find your crush were crushing on to you too. Very very veryyyy rare. That's why he is called as your 'crush'. Because a Crush only know how to crushed our heart into pieces. Wrecking tul hati tau kalau gini, Hahaha, sandi eh sandi..

Basically, have you've been felt this way? Ehem, lemme remind you. We're talking about 'crush', not 'love'. Love is a different whole story. Crush is a story which brought you a lot of memories and moral values in your life. 

Haa.. Have you ever crushed that heard?? If never, just prepare yourself because in future, who knows, right? Kekekehh.. Ok la, I need to off now as I'm omw to the beach. Saturday way maa ^_^ tata y'alls ! xoxo from me for my those who read my comeback blogpost.