Mata SEPETku seperti mata orang tidur.. Tapi ada aku kesah? Hahaha!

Assalammualaikum

Actually aku ndk buleh tidur. Padahal petang tadi balik lewat, ada kelas tambahan malam lagi. Patutnya aku dah terlentang atas katil aku yang ohsem dan melayan mimpi aku yang indah-indah belaka ibarat aku tu sleeping beauty. Pangg! Lempang di pipi. Ambek kau! Perrasaann kau ja lebiyh dohh. Hahaha, okeh abaikan. 

Berdasarkan tajuk di atas, petikan ini membincangkan______________. (What the heck?) Okeh okeh okeh painnn! aku akan stret to the point. Point aku adalahh, kenapakah aku dikatakan TIDUR time SEJARAH oleh cikgu aku padahal aku tu tengah tengok and focus time dia mengajar. Oh so sad! Like seriously weyh, time-time aku tengah duduk diam-diam suddenly my cikgu cakap NATASHA! JANGAN TIDUR! KAMU NEY TIDUR SEJA TAU! pastu Natasha this, Natasha that.. Aduyaii, mana la aku tahan kena camni bebalik. Kalau sekali ndk pa la. Ini dah lebih dari twice. Several times udah dohh! ARGHHH! Stress saye :')

Dan pada suatu hari yang mulia (bukan hari jumaat, tapi dianggap mulia sebab aku masih bernyawa pada hari tersebut, alhamdulillah), tahap stress aku telah memuncak apabila tiba-tiba cikgu cakap "TADI SAYA CAKAP KAMU TIDUR KAMU NDK NGAKU, SEKARANG NEY KAMU TIDUR PULAK" . Padahal time tu aku busy buat keja that was not so called as kerja tapi bolehhhh lahh. Walaupun dalam keadaan kepala atas meja, itu bukan bermakna aku tidur. Amboihh, student fav dia tidur tala-tala sana boleh pulak, aku yang bermata SEPET yang ndk tidur ney kena cakap TIDUR? Omgeee! Then, aku ndk tertahan la kann. Mungkin sebab aku PMS. HAHAH! Disebabkan aku terasa dia cakap aku tidur atas faktor mata aku yang kecil, so aku tercakap

"cikgu, mata saya sepet that's why nampak kecil macam orang tidur. Mama sudah lahirkan saya sejak azali memang begini. Ndk pa lah cikgu, nanti saya balik rumah, kasitau ayah bawak jumpa doktor. Buat pembedahan plastik supaya mata jadi besar style Korea"

Okeh look. Actually aku bukan bermaksud pun mau biadab macam tu ka apa ka atau berniat jahat. But, benda ney sudah happened to me banyak kali waa. Aku ndk tahan diperlakukan begitu banyak kali sedangkan benda tu aku langsung ndk buat. Tambahan lagi aku jenis yang mempertahankan sesuatu yang aku ndk buat. Sedih la bhaa kan bila kita berusaha sedaya upaya untuk stay fokus dengan subjek yang wajib lulus tapi susah giloss ney, tapi tiba-tiba kena jerit "TASHA, KAMU NEY ASYIK TIDUR SEJAA". Ndk ka sedih tu? Honestly to say I am sedih! Okeh, boleh kira suda berapa banyak aku sebut perkataan 'sedih' dan 'tidur'. HAHA! 

But you know what? Setiap kali aku terfikir pasal benda ney aka isu ini, aku akan teringat prinsip cikgu aku jugak. Beliau memang cikgu favourite aku sebab beliau OHSEM! yess, beliau ohsem. Asal ada something yang beliau dipersoalkan ka apa ka, beliau akan simply said SO WHAT? Haha, yeah! Sejak itu la aku sentiasa mengamalkan SO WHAT but only in certain condition yang mana aku akan gunakan hanya apabila darurat sahaja seperti semasa Perang Dunia Kedua. Hah? Apa kena mengena? Abaikan. Okeh, keadaan darurat itu adalah seperti isu aku dikatakan tidur. Hahaha. Aku telah melatih diri aku untuk cakap "SO WHAT?". Contohnya, Natasha, kamu ni asyik tidur sejaa. Then, automatically aku replied so what? tapi dalam hati ja laa. Kalau aku cakap gitu, terlampau la pulak $%^&* kan?? Haaaa~

Contoh kedua pulak adalah seperti conversation di bawah:-

"Tasha, besar jugak jerawat kau"

"Heh? Oh ya ka? So what?"

"Tasha, kau makin sombong la sekarang ney"

"sombong? Haha, So what??"

*sombong? sokayy :')

and etc.....

but when it comes to ..........

"Tasha, result kau ohsem yaww!"

Then baru laa aku reply <the usage of reply instead of replied :')>

"Hah??! SERIUS?! ALHAMDULILLAH!"

Hahaha! Poyo wehh! Hilang dah so what aku. Moral of the story, just so what to everything you hate. Heh? moral story ka tu....? Eh, so what?

No title :)

Assalammualaikum

It's been almost 3 years I've been at SMK Benoni and everything that I experienced here were all wonderful and I worth it. I've got almost everything all that I ever wanted when I was still in SBP. Lerhh, bukan mau cakap SBP tu ndk best. It's just ...... haha, entah. Tapi, SMK pun ohsem. But one thing that I  realised between these two types of school were that their way of thinking non-academically. I mean, gaya dorang, style bergambar and style dorang cer-cer. Almost the same. The difference was just only the title of the school tu jak. Okee, I'm here not to talk about this issue. Actually, aku just mau cakap yang aku tu happy sebab aku bahagia dengan classmates aku sekarang. But when it comes to PMS, better none of my classmates ever touched me because I'll get mad easily. Hahaha! okeh, well.. That's normal I guess :/

Now, look at this. Hahaha, for me it's joke okayy. Well, that's our boys. Hahaha! 

Al-Ustaz Wang Ashrin Lando

Daripada 'Al-Ustaz Wang Ashrin Lando', the only his real name is just Ashrin, and his nickname is Lando.Hikhikhik, pandai aku mengambur. Oh, sebelum tu, actually this is not our uniform. Ini hanya lah prop semata-mata sebab durang ada ULBS. Group Ashrin buat pasal forum. Tajuk entah pasal apa sebab dengan bangganya aku mau cakap, aku telah L U P A . SMILE :D

This is Ridzqin.

Well, introducing, this is Ridzqin. Proudly to say, he is our head student. Oh yeah, he did took our head. hahahah! ndk berhh~ Okeh, meh kita tengok gaya dia. Pecaya ka dia ni ketua pelajar? Aiyer, please la pecaya, hahaha! Murid kegemaran kepada ramai guru ney and banyak orang crush ngan dia ney. HAHAHA! Anyway, ermm.. Qin, your posing is a little bit slack, meh ubah sikit. Okeh, now.. 1, 2, 3 cheese!

Okeh! Much better! Baru laa real! Double triple thumbs up for you! Fuhhhh!

Ney pulak ... arrr.. ermmm.. apa arrr? arrr, entah! hahah! okeh whatever. Anyway, tengok whiteboard kami tu. Oh yeahh, you're right! those were all I-think models. Rajin sekolah kami ney kan? aww yeah! And the one who make notes until a lot of pages are we and that is what I hate. BAHAHA!

Now durang sedang buat forum. Haha! Sempat lagi ber'peace' arr. Mostly they were makin an Inprompt-tu style. Terbaikk!

Yeah, ney aku and Fanta. Aku saja jak tu. Kunun la mau buat muka ngancang. Hahaha! And below are pics kengkawang aku yang candid-candid belaka. HAHA! Sorry yaww~

Ney kali lar.. Baru la manang. Muka ngancang abis! Oh gosh, idola kuuu~

Based on pictures above, simply to say, we are non-stressed SPM candidates. Tunggu bulan September nanti baru la nampak satu-satu buat muka stress. Bila stress, start la tu buat suara-suara pelik dalam kelas. Usually, me and Fanta did it. Hahaha, besaa la tuu


So, walaupun kami ney budak SPM, style tetap macam bukan budak SPM. Hahaha! Bagi kami that is normal~ *ketawa jantan* Pendek cer, aku enjoy persekolahan aku sini. 
 

Ajal Maut di Tangan Tuhan

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Hari ini seluruh warga SMK St. Mary Papar and Kg. Benoni Papar dikejutkan dengan berita kematian Cikgu Salmah sebab accident petang tadi dengan Ninja King. 

Petang tadi, time aku tengah buat kerja sekolah, tiba-tiba mama datang and she asked me..

mama : cha, ingat kau lakat dengan cikgu Salmah?

aku : arr, awuu. Ingat lakat. Ngapa ya?

mama : Cikgu Salmah Jambul baa. Iya meninggal udah entadi

aku : *muka terkejut* arhh? banar bah mak? Ngapa tiba-tiba?

mama : accident tadi dengan keta Ninja King. Ayah mu membagi tau entadi.

FYI, Cikgu Salmah was my BM teacher at my tuition class when I was PMR candidates of 2012. She taught me a lot of techniques in writing skills. Markah aku yang biasanya 72%-77% melonjak naik ke 78%-86%. Wahh, anjakan paradigma gituu. Semua tu atas jasa dan ilmu yang dicurahkan oleh beliau. Guess what? Hearing she's gone forever really did touched my heart deeply from inside. Aku ndk sangka begitu cepat ajal menjemput beliau. Seperti apa yang telah diajarkan oleh ustazah aku, ajal maut di tangan Tuhan. 

When I had my throwback with her, aku terfikir. Does she know when will be her time? Does she know it is 2 years from 2012 which means it will be 2014? I'm not questioning but yeahh, that's her time. Tapi, alhamdulillah beliau sempat menunaikan ibadat umrah and that was along with my parents too. They went at the same date and plane. 

Sepanjang beliau mengajar aku, walaupun dalam seminggu hanya dua jam bersua muka for the whole approxiamately 7 months, but that is enough for me to describe her. Beliau seorang yang sangat determined. This can be seen when she determined to improve students dia punya skill menulis. Next, beliau bertanggungjawab. Sangat sangat okehh. Sebab nya kan, beliau ndk pernah ndk hadir kelas kami. She always tried to never missed our class. Besides, beliau seorang guru yang penyayang. I just can feel it :) Paling last we ever met masa majlis kahwin Abang Ladi (kazen). Tu pun about 1 month ago maybe. Seriously aku ndk pernah sangka that will be our last face-to-face conversations. 

Ustazah aku cakap, kalau mau tau tanda-tanda kematian kita, tengok orang sekeliling. Which means, kalau ada orang yang terdekat dengan kamu telah meninggal dunia, just bear in mind that you'll be the next. Hidup ini cuma singkat. Kita hanyalah ibarat perantau di muka bumi ini. Bumi hanyalah perhiasan semata-mata. Takwa merupakan bekalan yang terbaik untuk kita perolehi sementara berada di pentas dunia ini untuk dibawa ke akhirat. Just clear your thought that we're 'hamba Allah' :)

To all murid Cikgu Salmah, I know what you're feeling now. She's the best teacher ever. Kita haru reda menerima ketentuan Ilahi kerana yang hidup pasti akan mati and that is for sure. There's no one is immortal. Seperti yang telah dinyatakan dalam surah Al-Anbiyaa 

But for sure, segala ilmu yang dicurahkan oleh beliau tidak akan aku sia-siakan. Even, sampai sekarang I'm still using the same techniques. Cikgu, may you rest in peace. Semoga Allah menempatkan beliau dalam kalangan orang-orang yang beriman di sisi-Nya. Amin. Mari lah kita sedekahkan Al-Fatihah.

End your story #Writing

Assalammualaikum..

Entry kali ney aku just nak share ngan korang my writing. Writing ney aku kena hantar ngan cikgu aku esok. So any, correction will be made okayy? Kalau sudi, give me your opinion supaya kita boleh exchange pendapat. Anyway, thanks for reading.

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Instruction: end your story with knowing that you were just dreaming.

It was bright shiny day, just perfect to play tennis and there I was in front of a very big, old tree trunk. I was about to pick up the tennis ball when I turned and look down to see the hole below the tree trunk. I was very curious. As the curiosity killed the cat, so I checked. It was infinity view and very dark too. I just do not know how can I suddenly slipped into it and slides down the hole and reached the ground. I screamed at the top of my lungs but it was useless as I was alone down in the ground.

                All I can see was only a weird chamber with a pink door in the middle of it. As I opened it, my eyes getting smaller because of the shining light. I can’t see very clearly but I just moved on. I can smell the sweet dew of the surrounding and I really loved the smell. ‘Where am I?’ was the only question in my head.

                When I can see clearly again, I saw a tree with a bunch of small, round and golden-wrapped chocolates that similar to ‘Ferrero Rocher’. The stick of the tree was made up of chocolate sticks. The colourful flowers were all made up of variety colours of chocolate. The river was also made up of melted chocolate that flow along it. I really loved this place! I just ate everything that I picked and they were all made up of chocolates and for sure it was all very delicious! Even though it was made up of chocolate but the taste was not very sweet. Too sweet was just not my cup of tea but these were instead. I just loved it.

                As I walked along the garden that full of beautiful butterflies everywhere, I saw a little cute strawberry-shaped house in front of me. So, I walked to the house and knocked the door but there was no answer. I knocked again and the door was opened by itself. I just entered the house. Suddenly an old lady greeted me like she knew me very well before. She invited me to sit down on her pink and soft sofa. As I sat, it was very comfortable and I had torn the sofa inadvertently. I was so afraid if she got angry to me so I just swallowed it and ‘Oh please do not tell me this sofa was made up of marshmallow!’ I whispered to myself. But indeed it was ‘yes’. Why everything were made up of sweet food? It was weird but I like it though. I really wanted to ask the old lady when she suddenly brought me to her yard so I thought that maybe I should ask later.

                At her yard, we have a tea together. She told me much about her family and there were I knew who made this land and the most importantly why she was the only person in this very sore to speak ‘magic chocolate land’. She built it because her daughter loved chocolate very much. But now she had gone because of obesity and she wanted to live in her own world because she still believed that her daughter will come to meet her and together eat the chocolate again. Then, I thought to myself, ‘I know the reason of her death. She died because of eating too much sweetened food that cause her to become obesity and died’ I laugh to myself but I hide it so that the old lady would not notice it. How cruel I am. But yes, I do agreed that the old lady is a very loving mother as she is willing to wait for her dead daughter to come back.

                After done with our tea, she brought me to her daughter’s bedroom and let me slept there to have a rest. I grinned to myself. As she left me all alone in the bedroom, I really enjoyed myself as the room was full of variety chocolates. Some are big chocolate bars, long chocolate sticks, big and small chocolate balls. I ate as much as I can until I lied on the marshmallow bed helplessly with both of my hands were holding chocolates. Yeah, I love this, I love this, I love this and suddenly BONKK!

                I opened my eyes as I felt pain on my back and I realised that I was laying on my floor as I fell down the bed. Okay fine, that was hurt. I watched my hands to get my chocolates but there were none. Immediately I stood up. I rubbed my eyes not once, not twice but several times. I even slapped my cheeks until it turned red. Where were all the chocolates? Why am I in my room now? Am I was dreaming just now? ARGHHHH! Then I realised that all of those things were just exists in my dream. Never mind, later I make my own chocolate land. I grinned.

-The End-

Playing Guitar at Melaka

Hahaha, sorry the morry-morry. Assalammualaikum guys! Hahaha, awal-awal lagi dah gambar aku terlentang sana. Hehe, saja jak tu *cehh, mintapuji*

As you know, that's me with the guitar of a guitarist there. I was playing lagu Taylor Swift entitled Speak Now. Yeah, I'm not that pro sebab aku ney amatur jerr. Bukannya macam Najwa Latiff yang super-duper ohsem. Yang penting aku boleh main. Hahaha! *ketawa jantan*

Erm, btw. What's the purpose I'm doing at Melaka? Hahaha, actually kami ada Lawatan Kembara Ilmu organised by SMK Bongawan and was joined by SMK Benoni and SMK Klias Beaufort. Okeh, tu lain cer yerr. Nanti aku buat travelogue about that including our pictures lagi k? For the time being I can't sebab banyak tuu mau di buat. Seminggu Iols dekat Peninsular k. Hahaha, sabow yer sabow. *cehh, macam la ramai sangat nak tahu* xD hahaha, sokayy nevermind. :')

okeh, gtg now. Tata~

Buka Sekolah, Jadual Baru~

Assalammualaikum.

okehh, cuti pun  dah habis. Esuk dah sekolah, and unfortunately we have a new timetable. FYI, sekolah aku suka sangat mengubah-ubah jadual. Well, that's my beloved school anyway :/

Dengan bangganya I presents to you our new timetable, limited edition edited by Pg Zulfaqar. Hahaha, saja jak tu mau sebut 'limited edition'. Baru kelas sikit! hahaha! Kelaaass kau Mariaaaa xD

okeh, sekian dan terima kasih -.-

Luahan ku :(

Assalammualaikum..

Lama dah aku ndk update blog aku ney. Kesian.. Hurmm.. Ye laa, aku kan dah makin busy *nangis* Kelas sana sini ndk habis-habis. Orang semua cuti, kami kelas. Hurmm, hanya mampu tersenyum :) Okey laa, aku malas mau cer pasal kesibukan yang melanda diri ini, so we proceed to what I want to story-morry to uols.

Sejak kebelakangan ney, aku selalu jugak online Facebook aku tuu. Dan setiap kali aku online, konfom ada inbox dari kawan-kawan yang tak seberapa 'kawan'. Tapi memandangkan aku yang approve, so aku balas arr jugak. Lagipun dorang bagi salam, kena la jawab, kalau ndk free-free kena cakap "kau ney sombong la, muka tak la canntik sangat pon! Kau hengat aku hinginnn??!" Deii, better jawab daripada kena camni kan? So, ada yang mintak number phone. Alasan nak kenal-kenal konon. Eleh, dari fb pun boleh kenal-kenal ape. Kan? Kalau orang ikhlas nak kenal, without number phone pun boleh. Poke jerr tuu. Jadi berabis la aku ndk mau bagi. Last-last aku cakap, "jangan paksa please?" . Unfriend terus.Derr, kalau bagi, ibarat menghumban diri sendiri masuk mulut harimau jak. Palis-palis..

Then ada lagi sorang. Someone that I knew and also penah bertegur dua atau tiga kali. Ndk berapa kenal sangat pon tapi boleh lah jugak. Orangnya tinggi-tinggi macam model, kulit sawo matang and just enough for girls to crush on him including me. So, kami start 'rapat' sikitttt melalui chatting di fb. Senang cerita, he did a confession to me. Wehh? Kalau orang yang kau crush suddenly suka kau, ndk kan la kau ndk suka kan? Aku apa lagi, kesiukan la ney kunun. Then ada jugak dia bawa couple but I said, "sorry, better jadi kawan dulu then baru kau decide once again". Aku ndk mau dia menyesal di kemudian hari. So now kami boleh dikira sebagai special friend as he wish. 

Tapi.....

Belum sampai seminggu since his confession, he already showed tanda-tanda untuk berputus asa dengan aku. Siapa jugak yang boleh tahan dengan aku kalau setiap kali di call, jadi voicemail. Di text, ndk reply. Hurmm, aku sudah cakap dengan dia yang aku tu busy. On handphone jarang, pegang handphone jarang, reload? Lagi la jarang. Aku punya study start dari jam 8 sampai jam 12 tengah malam. Jadi aku rasa memang dia ndk tahan ngan semua tu. Haritu cakap he will okay with this and wait till I'm done with my SPM. And now ? Hahaha, hanya mampu tersenyum.

Tadi aku online again and as usual check newsfeed. Suddenly keluar dia punya post. Like seriously aku terasa. Guess what? He said "nak bljr ego ni . . hhaha ..." okee, itu ndk berapa lagi, but yang komen dia tu la memang cukup memilukan. He said "bcause dulu i too soft with girls .. till they put their shit on my head.. bukan semua laa ... just 2 or 3 cm tu .. if xda bkenaan plis jgn terasa .. ok?" wehhh? terasa abis bahhh aku. Siapa jugak ndk terasa kalau banyak post dia pasal aku. Benda macam ney la yang paling aku takut. 

I've been through the situation of fall in love during study time and it was last year when I was Form 4. I knew that I had done a big big big mistake and I realised that I need to be the real 'me' again. So, I did. Bila dia tiba-tiba bawa bercouple. Aku berfikir, 'Yeah I did crush on him and I want accept". But then I think twice. No! Kalau aku accept, aku akan melakukan kesalahan yang kali kedua. Ibaratnya aku tu mau masuk ke dalam lubang yang sama setelah bersusah-payah keluar dari situ. That's why I reject and just be a friend. Tapi tu lahh. Speechless terus aku bila dia suddenly buat gitu. Like seriously we're got nothing between us but he acted like we do. Pastu senang-senang put the blame on me. 

Please, aku student. All I want to be is a doctor. Please lah, jangan force aku sampai begini. I've been depressed a lot. If you do serious on what you feel on me then please withstand this pressure only for a year. Kau STPM, aku SPM. So, patutnya there is no problem to understand each other kan?

Huhuhu, kamu semua jangan salah anggap dengan apa yang aku tulis ney. It's just what I feel. If what I do is wrong, tolong betulkan. Aku betul-betul dalam dilema. Situasi ney buat aku rasa bersalah yang tersangat-sangat. Kalau boleh aku ndk mau la benda couple mapel ney. I'm still young. Aku mau freedom! Kapel mapel ney semua tahyul jak. Nonsense! Bahagia sementara, neraka tuu naa di depan. Ya Allah, palis-palis. Jauhkan lah aku dari semua benda-benda macam ney. 

Aku hanya mampu tersenyum dan pasrah dengan whatever he think about me. Ndk kesah la kalau dia mau cakap aku ney itu ka ini ka, asalkan aku fokus dengan matlamat, okee la tu. Walaupun depressed, aku masih sempat berselfie okay? hahaha! Bawa kawan jugak berselfie. Baru la ndk awkward. Wakakaka!

Smile!

From left: Jiji, me and Ani.

Walaupun berduka tapi masih mampu untuk bergambar-gambar. Hahaha! The conclusion is, whatever obstacles that we need to face, don't give up. Just move on for your own sake. As what the quotes said, 'Dont look back, if Cinderella went to pick up her shoe, she wouldn't have become a princess ;')

Thanks for sudi membaca luahan ku. If you do have some suggestion, please let me know :)